Red Thread

"An invisible red thread connects those who are destined to meet regardless of time, place, or circumstance. The thread may stretch or tangle but will never break." ~ Ancient Chinese Beli

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Boston is in my heart

I am sad, I am angry, I am bewildered.

There are simply no other words to describe the feelings associated the horrific act of violence that has taken place in Boston.  This is not a natural disaster that struck us once again.  This is man made.  A person (s) planned this event and targeted the runners, volunteers and spectators and set out to kill and harm innocent people and wreak havoc.  Their work has been done.  Lives are shattered and people are living in the fear of their memories.  Boston and so many will never be the same.

I am sad, I am angry, I am bewildered.

Patriot's Day in Boston is a day of celebration.  Schools and businesses are closed.  Fenway Park has it's opening day of the season.  20+ thousands of people take to the starting line in Hopkinton MA to make the trek to Boston for the finish line.  Thousands of these runners are running for a cause very close to their heart.  Thousands more line the streets to cheer them on.  Every one in Boston is a Bostonian on Patriots Day.  It is a huge celebration of life and all of the history and beauty that Boston has to offer.

I am sad, I am angry, I am bewildered.

I lived and worked in Boston for 12 years.  I lived in the Back Bay on Beacon Street.  I worked on the 46th floor of the John Hancock Tower in Copley Square. I have run 4 Boston Marathons on the Dana Farber Team and volunteered at many.  I've had the honor to run along side of my brother to support him for the climb up heart break hill.  I have cheered on thousands and thousands of runners as a spectator for more years than I can remember.  I met my husband in Boston.  I made amazing friends in Boston - many of whom still live there.  I made experiences in Boston which have shaped me to be who I am today.  Boston is a big part of who I am so perhaps that is why I am taking this so personally.

I am sad, I am angry, I am bewildered.

I pray for the families who have lost loved ones, for those that are injured and all of those affected by this tragic event.  Boston will never be the same.  Somehow Bostonians are pulling together and supporting each other through this tragedy.  It is all they can do but it is also what they know to do.

I can honestly say that after yesterday I feel more of a Bostonian than I ever did.  Seeing the events unfold on television oceans away was horrific.  I was actually able to imagine the terror because I have been there walking those same streets where I once lived and worked.  Seeing the blood stains after all was said and done really hit home because this was my home and is the home to so many of my very dear friends.

I am sad, I am angry, I am bewildered.

This print hangs in our guest room.  I still remember buying it at the Boston Marathon Expo in 1999.

Never has it meant more to me than now.  When ever I looked at this picture in the past I was reminded of the joy and celebrations that were a part of Patriot's Day.  I feel so sad knowing that going forward this special day will always be one filled with such grief and darkness.

So many of us are left feeling numb and not knowing what we can do to help, other than to send positive energy and prayers.  I have heard endless stories from friends who were running and other's in Boston yesterday of the acts of kindness expressed by so many.  People helping people because they cared, because they wanted to, because it is what we do.  It is my hope that today and going forward, we can all begin to search for the good in others and do good deeds ourselves out of the kindness of our hearts.  It is what we need to do in times like this to lift ourselves up and to help make this world a better place.

Heartfelt condolences to all affected by this tragic event and hugs to all of my Boston friends and all of my family.